pissed off
wtf i get harrased as soon as I get home, yea my parents could n should be worry but its not that serious, theres been plent of days that i havent gone home cuz i been to busy fucin, it so fucin anoyyin im 26 years old get of my dic...............i get bytch at cuz my cell died n ur gonna call 911 serously i rather live in a shelter than deal wit this bullsht This is wat im talkin about u brro some moey from someone they think they own u thats y i try to saty as independent as I can i dont ask anyone for shyt for the simple reason that they dont think they own and control me.............i swear to god if i had a kid and a good man i wouldnt get all this bullshyt if i had a place to go tonight i would be there n the on i came hom cuz i was tiree was cuz my berry was dying i had a great day but as soon as i get home all hell break loose..............im so tired of this i need to find a man to live wit n get the fuc out of ths hell hole. i get mo bullshyt from these people than some one im fucin. it should be th other way round myy day was awesome i went to skoo then saw my real life vin diesel then got fuced up at anna's then saw my , .....................yawn hes whatever to me u think he ask me t marry him but o well i like being a slut so if he dontto hold me down want someone else wlll Say something baby................
This sh*t was all I know,
You and me only,
And I did it all for you,
Still you were lonely,
We coulda worked it out,
Uhh, but I guess things change,
Its funny how someone else’s success brings pain,
When ya no longer involved that person has it all,
And you just stuck standing there,But, I’m gonna need you to say something baby,
Say something baby,
Say something baby,
I’m gonna need you to say something baby,
Say something baby,
Say something baby,
Uhh, I am the topic of conversation, this a celebration,
Lets toast to the fact that I moved out my momma basement,
To a condo downtown because its all about location,
I sit and drink wine and watch californication of life,
You shoulda been here to kick it with me,
We coulda split this whole thing up 50/50,
But now i’m at the 40-/40 getting b-tches tipsy,
Killing sh*t the ever so talented Mr Ripley,
How I go from being the man that you argue with,
To me and Dwayne Carter putting out the hardest sh*t,
I should wanna go back to the one I started with,
But I’m addicted to this life its gonna be hard to quit,
Yeah, just ask me how things are coming along,
You can tell me that you never heard none of my songs,
Long as you end up saying one day you plan to listen,
Cos whats a star when its most important fan is missing?
[Chorus]
This sh*t was all I know,
You and me only,
And I did it all for you,
Still you were lonely,
We coulda worked it out,
Uhh, but I guess things change,
Its funny how someone else’s success brings pain,When ya no longer involved that person has it all,
And you just stuck standing there,
But, I’m gonna need you to say something baby,
Say something baby,
Say something baby,
I’m gonna need you to say something baby,
Say something baby,
Say something baby,
John Cena & Randy Orton & Batista 4Sum
aWatchin monday nite wrestlin........and it is realy borin, no action what so ever. jack swagger I dont know who made this fag champion. It hurst to look at his face is so misconstructed. But hes fighting randy right so u know my panties are already wet just by thinkin about his body. Amazingggggggggggggggggggggggggggg. His thighs are enormos and his butt is so firm. You know what they say about guys wit nice ass they animals in bed. I really didnt feel like writin shyt on here say that all the time im soooooo unmotivated. steve is so fucn stupid hes like u should get a psp im like yea so u break it apart like u did wit the other 3, let me pull the money out my ass,i swear my brother can be like road kill lol.oeasster was another typical holiday in my eyes its jus another day with no real meanin or purpose. To bad the liquor store was closed. i should of taken monicas bottle since I basically drank half. I gave her a ccouple things I dont mind shes deserves it! I gave her a jessica simpson necklaace and a pink tank top and it says im one in a million, my fat ass self couldnt fit in it. Shes skinny everythin looks good on her, so jealous lol! we was all talkin bout going this weekend, lets c wat happens, it give me a reason to wear my new dress omg its so sexyyy I knew i should of gotten steve madden pumps ut i didnt think tht i was gunna be going out out anytime soon. even if i dont go I guess i can always go 2 the woods and watch people gamble as I get trashed. rich old men in the casino lol no let me stop. im fucin hungry. i wsh i could feel not hungry ever. wow one of the wrestlers just rip his pants of its like super soft core porn but wit all men i love it. U know i believe wen people say they get addicted sex like abel i mean tiger woods and james cuz once you do it once in a long time its like ur body needs and wants the adreline sex rush then u can either sleep it of or eat and not think about it. ???????//
i need to finish watchn my wrestlin "good thoughts good thoughs"
Highlight of the day-watchin randy orton fight tonight hes so fucin fine
Tip of the day-always hav a plan and a goal wit watever ur dealin wit or wat u want to doBipolar
I come t the conclusion that I think Im bipolar like for real for real, evn tho i havent been diagnosed by a professional aka my doctor but as I was doing my homework for my med term class, Doing a chapter about disorders stumbled upon Bipolar so here the summary:
A psychological disorder characterized by episodes of mania and depression, alternations between the two, o a mixture of the two moods simultaneously.
The mania is characterzed by extreme excitment, hyper activity, agitation, overly talkative, flight of ideas, fleeding attention, and sometimes viloent, destructive, and self destructive behavoir. The individual may have a decreased need for sleep, and seemingly limitless energy. The depression is characterized by exxagerated feelings of sadness, discouragment, and hopelessness that are inappropriate and out of proportion with reality.
So I know how I am and im def all the above, to bad I think medication is just going to make me cracked out. Then I wiill loose who I really am with the meds. But it would be nice to be doped up all the time like an escape from reality all the time no matter where I am. If thats the case I must not be happy with myself. lol its a bipolar symptom. I dont I guess it wouldnt hurt to ask my doctor but knowing him, he thinks im an great person but I dont think he gets wht I battle daily with myself 24 hrs a day. just cuz im a clean up looking girl doesnt mean my life is spongebob and louis vuitton happy. If he doesnt take me seriously im gonna find a doctor who does. I dont think i am is normal but I never said I was normal just crazy, very crazy. lol i need a pyschiartist.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
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Randomness...................i like your girlfrend I think she is very pretty. Is she jealous type like all the others? You guys ever performed a 3 sum would you like to?
Imagine having sumone love so much they would eat ur puke just like a dog.
I do what I want to a certain extent. Dont open my window.
Just one time maybe, not really just wen ever I want you. Come to me like a paycheck once a week.
What the fuc is wrong with you are the words repeated and repeated and repeated..........
I will let you know when I figure that one out. Someday.
Dummy I dont care. I never did. Never will. Believe the words I ever said to you. In reality they mean the opposite.
If I hate you then I must love you. If I love you I just want you around like a pandora bracelet on my wrist moving back and forth aginst my skin with every move I make.
Your beautiful to look at but I hate it when you speak, act, think, I think I like you better when im drunk. Intoxicated I dont have to comprehend the bullshyt that comes out your mouth.
Sexy Sexy Sexy. If I act upon my impulses does that make me a bad person cuz if u really think about it. You all are the same way just deny it.
I should of followed my heart and became a cop.
You all would of been fuced. I would have had every soul that encountered me, wrapped around my fucin finger.
Becoming one with the goverment is the ultimate source of control.
Iam a control freak. I get off on knowing I can make shyt happen when I want it to.
Too bad. Too bad.
The slutty petite rican girls swarm around pretty boys because they are dying to feel the tip of his dick. His easy fucs arent as frequent as he like them to be so he probably takes every opportunity he can get.
I bet you have better things to do than to read this bullshyt.
He says getting head sober is better than getting sloppy drunk head.
Pounding and Pounding sperm is the next beauty mask
Lets go to the back of your babershop?
The library is fine.
He would never go to the library with me or any where else with me..........only to his bed.
The wind.
I have to wash my hair.
I wonder how much cum is on the hotel floor?
I wonder what positions the last couple used on thae bed?
How many times did you have sex in one niight? 4 or 5?
I bet u can keep going once you do 2 or 4 lines of the ultimate redbull
The birds chirp 3:45am every morning I havent decided if it sounds beautiful or just annoying.
I loved waking up and leaving, walkin out the door feelin the sun on my face after partying my life away. hop in my car drive to my house. Turn the key to my house at 6:00am and realized I had the night of my life.
The roadkill on the highway was a big chunky mess. If only I could pull over and walk up to it. See how bad the hit was. Think about what car ended its life, depending on gross its insides look like maybe puke on top of it then poke it with a stick.
Hell would be drowing in a pool of maggots.
Im so tired. I want a juicy couture bracelet.
Mothers day is only good for my mother. Oh yea its mothers day for you to cuz you decded to fuc your man until his dick got so raw it got to the point it hurt.
Your so romantic. Every man that is in a relationship automatically has another one.
So he has 2 girlfriends. He is living another life. He is not fucin the same raggedy pussy every day, every night, lol you thought he was at work oh yeaaaaa he was workin on this pussy.
My hair in a bun. I lost my earings. Just pull out my piercings. Purple lipstick. Fucin bullshyt.
If you had aids would you spread it to the world. I wonder if you would go to hell because you are consider an official murderer?
What is worse 13 abortions or spreading aids?
Why dont you try it and let me know. Thankss
Come here rude boy boy. Take it and hate me for being a fucin bytch. Yes you hate it when I say no to you. and you. to allllllll of you cuz you woudlnt and couldnt get far and the opportunity was there soaking
Thats enuff randomness now that I proven how crazy Iam, Have a nice fucin day.fuc off fucin piece of shyt
i dont know why people pick on me or try to make me feel bad or sngle me out or push me out there life maybe im the devil and u kno ur not suppose to fuc wit me ?????????????
I dont kno i get sad cuz im cancer we sensitive we want to feel accepted n have the people we love love us back i guess people get to caught up in their lives to realize the way they are and the way they treat people or people they love sigh. Im tired of tryin to have fake shallow people care about me if u came acrooss my path in life i want to tell u that i really cared about u and i really liked u at that point in my life u might not care by readin this but what ever i was there to be there not to use u not to talk shyt about u not to make u feel bad about ueated the people i care about the way i like to be treated f i ever treateda piece of dogshyt let me kno so i can get a reality check but im done i give up put up the white flag i dont giv a fuc i dont need a soul in my life. life is short do wat u want be self absorbed bytch pay attention to ur dick go fucin feed ur kids take ur god dam dog to the fucin vet im sick of people. im human i have feeling s to ur not the only one stupid self absorbed fucin peopleThen there was the bytch
Yesterday I started my new set of classes. First class 8am to 11:30 am Medical Office Procedures, whatever sounds like a useless class you basically need to use your common fucin sense but who gives a flyin fuc.Next class 12:00pm to 2:30 Human Anatomy & Physiology in real stupid human terms it means the science of the human body. I don't know why they have to make everything sound super hard and smart ughhh America,
Last class my fucin labs 2:30 to 5:30 I am not happy about my 9 hour day but but I have to continue to brainwash my self by convincing myself this is all for my future this is all for my career.
So during my Human Anatomy & Physiology class I had realize I Had gotten my monthly friend wtf so thankfully i carry spare shyt to clog the blood lol so that added on to my annoyed mood. Then the girl from my first class takes it upon herself to ask me for a ride home, my immediate thoughts were um "do I look like a taxi cab?" So being the nice person that I am or its the simple fact that I don't know how to say no, I said yes. that triggered me to throw an mental tantrum.
Seriously your a grown adult how did you get to school? Have you ever heard of public transportation? Have you ever heard of saving your tax money and buying yourself a vehicle. You cant just go to school hoping or depending on someone you hardly know to give you a ride home.
What ticked me off the most that it was only the first day of this class and she already had the nerve to ask me for a ride. This wasn't the first time she had asked me for a ride that is anther story. So know my question is how the hell do I make it a point for her not to ask me for rides??? I do not want to have someone else in my car when I go home I like the fact that I can distress my horrible day in school while drive home in my own personal space. lol plus If something happens to my car then Im responsible for her and my safety.
If I can make my own effort to get a job save money make monthly car payments, keep up with car maintenance and its hefty cost, pay car insurance, car tax, car inspections, registration renewal fee and put $20.00 in gas every week then why cant everyone else. My friend suggested that she paid me for the rides, but money is not my main concern its the simple fact that I do not like giving rides and I don't like having people in my car yes I'm a brat yes I am selfish but I work hard to have what I have and I made an effort to go to school I signed up for these things not to be someones lazy ass chauffeur lmao
Wow this isn't even the half of my story, So in class the teacher passed out the syllabus and thru out her whole entire speech she kept repeating to the class that there is not to be any cell phone use. She doesn't want to see or here a cellphone. I'm thinkin wtf does this bytch have against cell phones??? Then she made it a point to to tell us if we don't follow the cellphone rule she will take of point of our grade and that one girl had failed the course because she had her cell phone out all the time regardless if she was texting or not, whatever
I was sitting in class next to my friends Becky and Michelle. The teacher said the was cuttin the class short at 2:00pm and that we were free to look thru the book or talk amongst ourselves until 2:30 our dismissal time. I was already pissed and did not want to do either so I pulled out my 2nd child my blackberry and started to vent via text to all my friends that actually cared about my horrible events.
Then out of the corner of my eyes I notice someone walking my direction the clothing resembled my teacher, i still continued to look down a resume texting. She stood there for about 7 seconds i still continued I clearly knew it was her standing there but i didn't give a fuc she could of said "excuse me can u please put the phone away but no she was probably standing there giving me the dirtiest look possible. Finally my friends got my attention by telling me jazz put away your phone. Still looking down I took my cellphone and put it down my shirt into my bra, yes right in front off her.
She walked away and to her desk. I was like I'm fucin switching out this class i mumbled under my breath. Becky was like wtf was that about and why did the teacher just do that so the next 15 minutes I was told the teacher kept grillin me and especially Becky. So now the teacher thinks I'm a bytch now I gave her the worst first impression of me. Now she probably thinks I'm uneducated and one of those disrespectful puertorican bytches or what ever race she thinks iam People think I'm black/Spanish whateverrrrrrr
Finally 2:30 came around I still haven't made eye contact with the bytch but I still made it a point that I really didn't care about the Lil episode i stood up reach exxagertly into my shirt pulled out my bberry and finished my text got all my books together and left furiously.
Talk about a crappy day, my period, girl thinks I'm a taxi cab, teachers a bytch, have to lug around 5 thick books daily fml I guess life could be worse but for now ts just annoying.
Thankfully on my drive home I called my sunshine and told him about my horrible day so he took me to my fav restaurants for drinks then we visited his uncle. Then we went out to eat and more drinks lol and he cheered me up the whole time. OK so life isn't that bad................I wish I was at a Rave
Current mood:I should of stay home today like i did yesterday. Waste of my time, If I felt like going to a bar I would of gone. It would of been nice if i was told ahead of time that was the plans, to go to the bar. I would of combed my hair and changed out of my timbs. I didnt feel social but wen the fuc do I fel social yea never. I really despise people. Im to a point where I hate the people I cared about or wasted my breath on. Seriously your all on time out. You know who u r wen I ignore u 2 weeks or a month. Its the only way your going to learn not to take advantage of my kindness. I dont need friends. I dont need anybody. Just the people that giv me shyt all the time. Its so cold in my room. I hate sleepin alone. I rather sleep alone than to sleep with someone that doesnt appreciate my efforts and the time I take to make that person feel like god. I hate not being able to not do what I want with out everyone talkn shyt and trying to make me look like the bad guy. the way i do it to myself or look for it........Your doing the same fucin thing. Being sober sucks makes u really think about how you hav really nothin, and how fuced up people really are. lol money u think I want ur fucin money if I wanted ur money I could of stolen it a long time ago. If I wanted money I could of had yearsssss ago stupid niggas trust pretty faces. Im better than that to steal from someone wtf fuc I look like tryin to steal a cd or wats in yo pockets lol funny. This good girl by day and bad girl by night thing is gettin old quick im tired of being both its mentally/emotionally draining. just want to be able to be myself n its hard to hold on. Evry time i deal with a fucin lving breathin thing I feel like im just there for a purpose. but maybe thats the way Iam with people no it s the way I treat people I try to find the purpose they will serve being onvolved in my life. Half the time its to fuc me over im use to that more like immuned. I keep gettin my doses of karma every fucn day wen will it stop! I hope your happy u whinny lil bytch.anxious
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